Oops! sorry! Okay, there’s a better explanation under the cut:
I have Photoshop CC on my computer and I make my own psds
There are times where I’ll read scripts that are fantastic, but it’s not in me at that time. I’m not the type of – you know, some actors really revel in the fact that they hide behind – that they can really transform themselves and step outside of themselves.
I always feel very much like my job does the opposite, like it puts me somewhere where I can reveal myself. So when a character introduces me to an aspect of myself that I was sort of like less aware of, it’s always so sort of – it affects me so greatly that it’s like, oh, wow, that is it.”
F O R E V E R.
if you had to drop out of a class you are not a failure
if you had to take time off school you are not a failure
if you had to leave school for good you are not a failure
your worth is not determined by academia and this goes doubly so for disabled people and others for whom school is set against them
"She’s like nothing else in the world," he told me, and the sound of an almost religious devotion was there again in his voice.
- I just need to know the truth .- Can’t you just thank me and get over it? -Thank you.
I was scared of so many things. I was not overcompensating but just compensating. Now, I really have no apprehension about anything, which is great. I can get behind all of my creative endeavors more so than ever before. I’m super happy and challenged and inspired and relaxed.
life hack: always like someone’s selfie. it takes a lot of courage to post a picture of yourself. always be kind. reply nice things.
That’s just it. The first three books set everything up that Bella was going to have to make this *SACRIFICE* to get what she wanted: forever with Edward. She was going to have to endure the newborn year, risk killing people, give up her human family and friends, become Jacob’s enemy, lose the chance to ever have children. Then there was the risk to her ‘soul,’ too, which is something that is never resolved. Over and over and over again, especially in the middle two books, everyone is telling her the price she’s going to have to pay for this. Edward, Jacob, Rosalie, Carlisle… even happy-go-lucky Emmett in the “Emmett and the Bear” chapter says, “Hell’s not so bad if you get to keep an angel with you,” which is hardly a ringing endorsement of vampirism.
And the Breaking Dawn happens and literally NOT ONE of the things they warned her about applies to her. NOT ONE. I mean I guess she has to cut out Renee but she’d kind of already done that? She keeps Charlie, she skips the newborn year, she’s instantly good at being around humans without killing them, she has a magically perfect baby who Jacob imprints on, thus solving all the vampire-wolf problems in a glittery instant of fairy dust. It’s no longer a sacrifice, it’s a Grand Prize and it just ruined the tone of the story for me. I was ALL ABOUT the sacrifice angle! It’s not that I wanted Bella to suffer, I just wanted her to have to play by the same rules as all the other characters. NONE OF THEM had a choice about *anything* and they still had to face all the bad parts. I think Bella would have been a lot more sympathetic of a character—and she *finally* would have understood what the others were trying to warn her about—if she had to go through the same things that they all did. It was portrayed as a sign of the depths of Edward’s love for her that he didn’t want to ‘damn’ her to this life… if him trying to spare her that fate is proof of his love and care, to then go and make that fate AWESOME just seems to defeat the purpose???
Wouldn’t it have been MORE romantic if being a vampire really wasn’t as magical and great as Bella thought it would be, but it was still worth it to her because she got to be with Edward? Of course she’s happy—she got Edward, immortality, beauty, power, a new house, a baby, a new car, her father, her best friend, no newborn madness, a power that saves everyone… if all she got was Edward and was STILL happy, *THAT* would prove how deep her love for him really is more than any “no one loves anymore more than I love you” declaration ever could.